Fransisca Sandra Christina. 21 y.o. Dentistry. Indonesian ArchAngel. and let's say that my right brain doesn't work as good as my left brain; I admire arts - I love music, painting, picture and all, but I'm no good at those. :D
I’m such a mess today. These problems have been haunting my mind for few days (hell, maybe it’s been weeks), and now it’s really hard to focus on my study. I have to study, for tomorrow is the exam day, the hard ones. I don’t wanna screw it. But I need to spill my anxious thoughts. And unfortunately, I don’t know whom I can talk to, whom I can trust to….anymore. It’s pathetic, I know.
-April 22nd, 2014
Lidahku kelu, tidak dapat memuntahkan kata-kata.
Tetapi jika kamu harus memaksa, maka biarlah jemariku yang mewakilinya.
Kamu, memang bukanlah lelaki paling sempurna yang pernah hadir di hidupku.
Setidaknya itulah pendapat mereka.
Memangnya siapa yang menjalani roda kehidupanku? Aku, kan?
Siapa pula yang mengerti benar tentang aku dan kamu — kita? Aku yakin mereka secuil pun tidak.
Tapi aku tahu, siapa yang paling kuinginkan untuk kutatap ke kedalaman matanya di tiap-tiap aku menyambut pagi.
Aku tahu, siapa yang memahamiku bahkan hingga ke ujung-ujung kuku.
Layaknya jemari kita yang tepat saling mengisi ketika bertaut,
dan dendangan doa kita yang berirama kepada Tuhan,
aku tahu, bahwa denganmu, itu sudah pas, tidak kurang dan tidak lebih.
-Jan 15th, 2013
Janganlah mengeluh tentang aku yang mengomelimu. Karena aku yang mengomel, itu aku yang peduli. Tetapi patutlah engkau bertanya tentang aku yang berdiam. Karena diam bisa saja berarti mati rasa.
-Jan 14th, 2013
"2 years" is such a sacred phrase for me now. It’s like years full of struggle. To be a dentist. To wait for David Archuleta my-forever-idol back from his mission. To welcome back my future-life from far away (you know who you are). I wish the next two years will pass really soon. And I promise I will do my very best for all. Bless me, Lord.
-March 20th, 2012
Mengapa ia sulit menguap, tetapi dengan cepatnya mengembun dan membentuk awan gelap?
-Feb 13th, 2012
Waking up in the morning.
On the way to school.
Seeing your friends.
Seeing those bitches you hate.
Seeing your crush.
Get called on in class.
See two bitches fighting like
And you watch them like
The final bell rings.
Go home and get on Tumblr.
Go to bed.
You’re my past, my future
My all, my everything
My six in the morning when the clock rings
And I open up my eyes to a new day
My laughs, my frowns
My ups, my downs
It’s the feeling that you get
When you know that something’s true
When I think of love, I think of you
- Lee Ryan
Cause you bring out the best in me
Like no one else can do
That’s why I’m by your side
And that’s why I love you.
Just had really nice conversations with you last night and this morning. This is what I like from us; we can talk about everything and be open about anything. From childhood memories, experiences, dreams and hopes.
Speaking of which, I can’t believe that you still remember our childhood moments. Well, I remember some of them, but not very much. How we played together with my brother and your sister, and hmm… what did you say again? That I told my mom that I liked you, when I was still in the 4th grade? Really? Like, seriously??? Err, kok aku nggak inget yah pernah liat kamu lewat naik sepeda? Perasaan dulu malah aku yang suka keliling-keliling naik sepeda. Haha… Oh, one of those moments I remember the most (and apparently you remember it too) is when I, you, your sister and our moms, had dinner together at your house. Eating “pecel lele”. And it was blackout. So, we already had our candle light dinner, right? How romantic is that? X)
To be honest, I kinda embarrassed when you said you already knew that I liked you when we once close about 2 years ago. By that stupid I-don’t-even-remember-what-site-it-was. Shoot, I was trapped, then! :hammer: But I’m surprised too when you said that you’ve been considering to get closer to me that time. Though you finally didn’t. And I accept your reason. That time I wasn’t mature enough and I’m afraid too that in the end we were gonna screw our relationship up. Not just thinking about us, but about our families too.
Well, we’ve grown up now. And we’ve decided to work on our relationship together. We both know that we want this to be serious. Like I said; aku nggak mau jalanin hubungan ini cuma buat senang-senang. Like what you’ve told me; if it’s possible, you want me to be the last one for you. We’re on the same page, then. So let’s try our best to make it happen, keep our promises, and I believe we can work it out. Oh by the way, you don’t have to ask; I’ll wait for you ‘til you come back here, with me. I’ve been waiting for you since I was in the 4th grade, remember? It’s been like, 12 years? So, 2 years more should be nothing, eh? :D
Dear, I’m happy and lucky to have you. When I’m with you, I am…me. No lies, no pretends, just honesty. Thank you. :)
-Jan 14th, 2012